Ending of 2012

Never been that hard and heart broken
I just duno what I should do anymore...
Two years of relationship.. Just make me feel like I'm loosing him....
What goes wrong..

好想累的时候抱抱你

好想累的时候抱抱你

很喜欢拥抱，喜欢与心爱的人深情相拥的感觉，什么也不说，什么也不做，就只是静静地拥抱，久久不要分开，似乎只有这样，才能体会与心爱的人真正溶为一体的真实感。在那一刻，相信时间也会为我们停止的……

一直以来都觉得，拥抱，较之亲吻更加真实、温馨，那个可以让你依靠的胸膛一定是很温暖的，肩膀也一定很坚实。不然为什么大家在伤心哭泣的时候，总想找个肩膀来依靠呢，我想，其实更多地是想要一个拥抱吧。­拥抱的时候，内心会溢满一种叫甜蜜的情愫，拥抱的感觉是真实和安全的，因为拥

抱是有温度的，拥抱是有声音的……

拥抱的含义有很多：

情侣间的拥抱，是幸福甜蜜的；
夫妻间的拥抱，是宽容理解的；
朋友间的拥抱，是贴心信任的；
吵架后的拥抱，代表妥协与原谅；
相逢后的拥抱，代表思念与激动；
离别前的拥抱，代表不舍与期待…

拥抱，是无声的语言，拥抱，是最简单的接受与认可…
　　
拥抱的时候，彼此是被需要的，被别人需要是时候，是一个人最有价值的时候…

曾经在篇文章上看到一段话：
　　
当一个女人从背后抱着你的时候，请一定别再挪动脚步，而请转过身，紧紧抱着自己的女人。
　　
因为，当一个女人愿意从背后深情抱着你的时候，代表着她把自己的身心都交给了你，那拥抱里，有着太多太多的爱…
　　
当一个男人从背后拥抱着自己的女人，两人的感觉是温馨和甜蜜的；当一个女人从背后拥抱着自己的男人，女人是无声的祈求，而男人是心的复归和宁静…

亲爱的，我曾经说过，好想累的时候你能抱着我，其实，我何尝不想累的时候，你能在身边，无需太多言语，只要一个拥抱，再苦再累都值得…

也好想，能够在你累的时候，从身后环住你的腰，把脸轻轻靠在你的后背，静静地，无需语言，用心灵对话，倾听彼此内心的声音…

亲爱的，不能守在你的身边，不能在你伤心难过的时候给你安慰；不能在你累的时候给你拥抱；也不能在你喝醉的时候假装很生气的臭骂一顿，然后再把你带回家；更看不到你面对这么多不可能时的无奈与心酸…

可是，我是可以体会你的心情的，因为，在你倍受思念痛苦的同时，我和你是一样的，可是我们别无选择亲爱的…

可是，亲爱的，你怎么不在我身边，电话再甜美，话语再安慰，也不足以应付不能拥抱你的遥远。

拥抱，真得这么遥不可及吗？

请相信我，我会用我的双臂，在你看到我的第一眼时拥你入怀。

亲爱的，好想好想你，好想好想累的时候能抱抱你…

Is that mine??

I wonder what I will think if I were a mum...
What should I do when I need to make things right??
Is just a simple move but it really took me sometime to let go...
Mixed feeling that make me speechless

熬过了我们就结婚

熬过了我们就结婚

有位心理学家曾写道，一个成熟称得上真爱的恋情必须经过四个阶段，那就是：共存、反依赖、怀疑、共生，之间转换所需的时间不一定，因人而易。
第一个阶段：共存。这是热恋时期，不论何时何地总希望能腻在一起。
第二个阶段：反依赖。一方想多一点时间做自己想做的事，这时另一方就会感到被冷落，总是因为一点小事去计较和数落。
第三个阶段：怀疑。这是第二个阶段的延续，要求更多独立自主的时间，总是觉得对自己不好了，没以前爱自己了。
第四个阶段：共生。这时新的相处之道成形，你们已经成为最亲密的人。你们在一起相互扶持、一起开创属于你们人生你们在一起不会互相牵绊，而会互相成长，他（她）就像是你的亲人。
但是，好多人都通不过第二或第三阶段，选择分手。其实很多事只要好好沟通就会没事，可是想太多和任性就是无法避免。
你发现了吗？你们本没有相同之处，外表不相像，性格也是南辕北辙，但是相爱然后在一起，日复一日，年复一年，你会惊讶你的眼睛竟有点像他的眼睛。他的微笑竟也有点像你的微笑。你们走路的步伐变得相似。你们说话的语气也愈来愈像。你们爱喝同一杯饮料。你们的口头禅变得一样。你们总能猜到对方下一句话是什么。原来我们会变成我们所爱的人。
你在不知不觉中让他改掉了他爱皱眉的坏习惯。这个改变，或许连他自己也不曾察觉。他在不知不觉中让你变得做事不再马马虎虎。你差点认不出自己。会在不知不觉中逐渐变成对方理想中的人，这种改变，绝对不是刻意的。两个人相处时间越久，气质也越相近，有一天你惊讶地发现，这样的你们多么默契。
或许再也遇不到这样的感情。深深爱着一个人的时候，你原来真的会一点一点失去自己，可是为什么你还会觉得快乐呢。大概是因为你在失去的同时，也赚了，你把他的气质和他的微笑都赚回来了。

来自于转贴

Haizs

Why they always need to be that way...
I tried my best to stay back at home without meeting my friends... I even miss my flight just because I want to spend more time with them... But looks like they never know and never understand.... Haizs mentally an physically exhausted.... Seriously need a break

不知为何今天的感触特别深
老鼠啊，我们在一起也快要两年了
都没真正的吵架，看来你一定忍了我很多，对不起哦考试期间一直烦你一直吵你，把你弄得团团转。
而且又哭泣。
幸好都有你在我身边打气，加油，有你真的好幸福
不知为何，现在的我，好想说。
好爱好爱你。 真的真的让我有这冲动说，只要有你，谁都可以不要！

其实我有时会多心在想，你喜欢我什么啊，到底我配得上你吗。好奇怪却好想说

自信

是我不够好吗？配不起他吗?

我的自信去了哪呢？

Title less

Glad that I found you... Who can accept my childish and behavior...
Thanks for always being there no matter what and how...
You are the reason that I'm perfect now... <3

A girl should have two things, a smile and a guy who inspires it.

I think I have both!!!

看到他瘦下来， 好心疼。
真的希望可以让他吃包包。

好想抱着他。

时间

等了整晚，得到的是一大堆的报告，急着该电话的声音。
不等了，我会失望

故事

我们的爱情隔于两地
爱着对方思念着你我
各自都努力的奋斗着
为了机票也为了拥抱
每天喋喋不休聊不完
试着让对方有安全感
我依赖你你疼惜着我
其实两个远处的心已结合着

我喜欢你骂着我不吹干头发的样子
我喜欢你那愣着的表情。。 还有说不完的话题
我喜欢你在我急着做东西时表现出没什么大不了的样子
我喜欢。。 有你在我身旁的日子。

决定

不只是好是坏
我别无选择
只能学习成长，
宽容的量度不知有多少
承诺也是个交代吧。
我的心应该能接受吧　?
远距离恋爱波折会不多吧

眼泪，不忍一忍吧

他是我的

真的好想他，
不管有多少的空间
我的脑袋真的只有他

让我乖乖不再去理会其他男生，眼里只储放一个人。 我不知何时爱上了他，也不知我能如此的疯狂，但这样的相约会是我最珍惜的每克每秒。
我做了对地选择，选择爱上了他
他将会是我一辈子的老伴， 相爱着的感觉其实真好

我要学习不哭着睡觉！

离开
今天忍了整天的泪水终于淹满了我的视线，眼睛好重也好痛
眼泪一直打滚，根本就停不下来，好久没那么大哭一场。
虽然我们还会见面，但我心疼他又要离开更远的地方赚钱储蓄着我们的未来。
从来就没人能像他一样能让我有抱着与人共享未来幸福的感觉
更没人能像他能让我做回我要的自己
也没人像他能让我爱着有幸福的感觉
没人能代替他，他会是陪我一直走下去的老鼠。

要是我能把自己塞进行李真好
在他走的那刻，好希望我是那个不离身的钱包

坚强的我们应该不怕风吹雨打在下次见面时会火辣辣的甜蜜约会吧！
Ps 我答应了不哭，至少做到了一半吧

I wish I could sleep well with the shocking news...
I'm scared... I'm scared of everything that would break us apart... I'm not prepared with all these...
Can't just let him be nearer to me?

晚安

好无聊哦。。。
快闷死了

A little means of happiness

I've received a postcard from mr.Rat!
Really happy while getting it to hand!
Though I know he will write in an awkward way but I do miss his writing! Never really felt so happy in this month! Is really happy when you know someone still miss you when in overseas... Though we might not meet each other but time you spend to FaceTime while mosquito are enjoying sucking your blood.... I know that you really care alot.... Guess I make you worried...sorry that I make you sleep late and get up with a pair of panda eyes..thanks for being there for me everyday to be my listener....
You touch every single little corner of my heart...

比较

其实不必比吧，因为我最喜欢的就是你

路程中

再回到北海的路程中
在我脑海的只有你还是你

我们的相遇，然后玩到过了界限也不知的时候，一概都是这时开始的吧！
还记得我们还不是情侣时，我带了你回外婆家，大概是因为路途很闷刚好你有闲着，就被我叫了过来。一路上一直停车，就为了拍那些绿绿的稻草，蓝蓝的云，一群的小鸟。。 无目的的向前，当时玩到忘了早餐，就是享受着那红红的太阳照晒着皮肤。。

到了家乡，很自然的把你带到东带到西的，想让你看看我最爱的乡下生活。 你，是我第一个带回外婆家的朋友，当然也是你一为男生咯。

我们享受着骑着脚踏车是吹来的暖风，一路笑嘻嘻的，这里拍下那里拍下，还起去了好远好远的地方。。

心血来潮的我们又驾了车到温泉！
哇，第一次出门，就是半裸，身材好好的你显示了些害羞又想玩的脸孔。。真的觉得，我们又跳步了吗？ 嬉水，温泉的水好想把我的心跳加速了。。
其实我从没想过会也这样的假期，更不会有你陪我走到现在。

一路上回家，你好自然地躺在我肩旁，真的有些吓倒哦
有说有笑，路途好像短了许多，不知为什么，当下的我只有一个感觉。。有你好像不一样了。。

我想念那时候的欢笑
更期待未来的故事。。

Friday

Time flies... Is another Friday without him....
I miss him even more and more...
The three hour break become so long...
Even I stuff myself with works but nothing helps....

下雨

睡觉前下起了大雨
已停止流泪一星期的我，
听到雨滴声，
又想起你,眼泪又飙了。。
不习惯一个人生活，
也该说不想一个人生活。。
虽然还是适应了，
却往往想回到从前。
真的想你到疯了

回家

回家的心情应该是开心的
每一趟回家，家人终会把我那兴奋的心情抛到谷底。
我并没有要求大老远的来载我，能让他们方便的我都做了，为何就不能为我想一想呢。 我讨厌等待，因为一个人的等待不能疏忽，须打起十二分的精神，注意四周围，好累

思念

有时真的不能不想他，
今天在三楼的课室温习，想起了他去吃午餐时还买了果冻甜点，
忙着读书的我看到冷冷的果冻，心情一点都不紧张了，考试前的抱抱，
是我最需要的。。也没了。
好想他

is me

sometime...when you love someone too deep....nothing can really heal the wound...
the only way to release out the feeling..just crying......feelings are beyond those that can be controlled....
I tried my best to hold on my tears...but it flows like water tap.....
I know is harsh on you..but I really wish you could be here understanding me more...

寂寞

不是寂寞而想你，是想你而寂寞。

Lonely

I felt extra lonely without him....
T.T really miss him lots now ......

Love

A new chapter of life

Meeting rat always a happy and joyful thin for me... I felt so lucky to have him... He is not only my best friend but my best lover...
Never once I felt so glad to meet someone till I met him...
Today we are gonna start a new way of life by maintaining our long distance relationship... I used to be worry bout all this but he always reassure me with his confident,holding my hand and said... Never worry because I will always be beside you and never get scared because I will be there for you... Every guy would say that but in his eyes... You know is all true... A guy who never really mention I love you doesn't mean they don't love you at all... Because I know he is the one who always love me and worry bout everything for me... When he is around he will be just right there finish up tons of work that you need to do before i say it.. He will settle those little little small things that I will only realize I should have done earlier...
We care bout each other..we always try to sacrify and do more for each other. I love the moment when he gaves me his pillow to sleep and he slept at te corner of it.
I love the moment he gaves me all my favourite scallope and he eat the remaining.... I love that he will always dry my hair no matter how tired he was......

Lying on his chest , listen to his heart beat.... I feel the real him..... Wishing that the pumping heart is beat for me everytime he breath....

I am who I am infront of him..... Never need to fake the childish attitude and let him take care of me when I'm away from home....
My sis said that we are like an old couple though this is just one year plus.... But I know I found the right guy who I wish to walk together on the isle...he is the only one who I can think of to share my joy , my ups and down....
Thanks for pouring love on me since the day the 'you' and ' I ' become as 'we'.

剩下

每当我在一直想要如何善用剩下的几天来陪你，你却在一直想着去玩
你留下并不是为了我，这只是借口。
也是用来安抚我的甜言蜜语。
其实我早就应该接受这事实。。
好累

情人节

说不出的失望
只能以天天他已很疼我而开心
这也是一种幸福
因为天天都是情人节

Only you

On my way back to kl....
My mind keeps think bout him....
I never knew I'm so dependent on him for every single thing...
Saw a couple who sat infront of me... Just remind me of him more and more....
Today was the last day of his uni life... And when he gonna be back again to college would be his big day for exam.... Uni is the place we met.... We chat.... We have all the stories there.... Every single beat of the music of us played there....
The owl and rat's story not gonna end like this..... And I know it would play even further far than I expect it is...
I love all the scene that you kiss and hug me in uni... Cause it is always the best support you gave me when I need you.... You are always there for me and standby to help me...
I guess never before there's anyone who can step into my life so easily and affect me that much....
Is pretty hard to explain I feel bout you.... Cause is never been so easily describe with just a *LOVE* word...you are my best best friend,my best listener,my best buddy... And definitely my best boyfriend !

时间

我没事，
自己也不知是真的没事还是想再撑下去

就算是那一分一秒，我真的不想离开
曾经我是那么的不粘人，不过每当想起在多两个月又要背起远距离的恐惧时，我怕的事更本平衡不了我的胆量与信心，那叫我如何去选择一人独行啊？
一次有一次的分离，都经不起远距离的考验，教我现在如何能不坐立不安呢。
两个月是多么的短暂，却什么都不能做。
心中的不安，谁来扶持，谁来安慰呢
大家都在看好戏，短暂的恋爱撑得起考验吗？

就算相信你，又会如何呢？

我也不知为何眼泪不停地流，希望明天会更好吧！

晚安

I seriously don't know what should I do when I really really miss him!!!!!!!!!!
I just hate all the feelings now!!!!!
Maybe I should get an early sleep!

Titleless

Contentless....

I just need to get used to this... THIS and THESE.....

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my weekends

spending time with him is always too little even we've been sticking around for more than 24hours...

Is been 378 days.... we might not have celebrate it as grand as people usually do for first anniversary but I had the best moment with him throughout the whole Christmas , anniversary and new year!

what is so special?
well..nothing...but we are not celebrating it alone but in double with someone else!
at least I'm not crying for all those important days like I used to be last time... I celebrated with all the laughter throughout the whole night... Not alone, No crying, No arguement.....

Though everything looks just a simple day, but I'm glad he is beside me for all these days.
A gift sent through poslaju made my day...is not bout the superb present he gave me but the whole plan.....
Really jumping for joy when the postman reached and I know the present is for me .......
*I will like just jump to him give him a koala bear hug*

Christmas with Evan ...three of us...drank some wine and chit chat..... something different but warm.... love it... Never need a super romantic ones..cause you are the world...

Spent the new year's eve with your family and friends in seremban become a new experience and another story that we both created..Meeting them is the best thing to end this 2011.... we had a good start and I totally enjoyed every single sec till 2011 clocked into 2012....... this is something I never expected which will ever happen....

Dear rat,

Loving you more and more everyday..... being now and forever isn't gonna be easy all the way but i know we can make it to the end...
thanks for bringing me home this new year'eve. I might not be the first but I hope to be the last.. It was the great night ever for now...meeting your friends, knowing them more and especially yours beloved family... thanks for letting me to be a part of all these....this might be hard to explain or even express... But what your mum did ......really sur prise me and frankly telling you....this really make mebe more confident now.... thanks rat.....*see...i wanna write more but you ask me to go for nap...hmph!*

sincerely from owl...