I'm a girl

sometimes I do wonder why I can't act like others girl..
pretending how they pretend
act like how they act
or maybe I'm the one who have problem?

all this never been my problem, never been in my mind because in my group of friends, I play till the top, chat the most and we enjoyed each other stories

I know as a posting mates, as a classmate, as a friend I can share all my feeling and my thought with you all.
But all this are not what I want to do.
Please don't put any hesitation on my doubt on not telling you guys bout my life. my private life indeed?
I don't need to share all my things bout Mr.63 with you all because I think that is not necessary.
I wish to have a pure friendship and chit chat bout other stuff excluding bf..
Being care is what friends should do, but I will share when I will.. or when I want.

Sometimes people in uni tend to say that I'm serious all the while.
hmm this make me think alot...
thinking bout...

      Is that because I do work fast?
      I stay at home more?
      I didn't go clubbing and drink?
      I don't go shopping every weekend?
      I don't sleep till noon?
      I look serious when come to studies?
      I tend to stress up or being quiet during exam preparation?
      I always do notes?
      I dare to ask teacher when I have doubt?

haizs...... are these known as serious?
do they really know me well?
do they really know how I behave among friend?
we are just uni friends, mingle around for a few hours a day doesn't seems to be a great reason to do a judgement....

Just wish that I can learn to bare with all these... somehow I'm lucky enough to have sze yiing as my uni best best friend... though she is not staying with me but I know all these will never affect us. =)

THE PROJECT!!!!

Haizs

Hate being alone at home..
Hate spending my night in a quiet room
Hate the darkness Everywhere
All the little sound came from anyplace just make me feel uncomfortable
The only thing that can kill all my worries and my fear is sleep early. Nitez

I'm such a baby

闹别扭

昨天的我闹别扭了
不是谁对谁错，
也不是什么吵架，
就是我依赖吧
没事想太多
发了自己的脾气
想回其实好笨。。。

在你面前
好像长不大似的。。。
傻乎乎的。。。
好好笑。。=）

是吗？？这就是我们俩吧？

loosing friends

after broke up with my ex, I lost all my friends that I'm close to in my tuition center. wonder why things can turn out to be that. or maybe that's how guys like to be? isn't that suppose to be a personal thing and friendship is another part of story?

Fail again??

Failed my oral patho again.. Looks like this term I scored like brainless piggy... really disappointed... =(

The usual me who never ever worried bout failing now waving to my passing marks, standing at the failing border. haizs... what can I do?? back from India, I don't wish to stick with books anymore for 24-7. I need a real rtudent life who can enjoy. I choosed to be one and I need to bare with my score now. 2marks to pass sound close to the border but it still a FAIL and RED mark.. I hate being this, hate being the one who upset bout marks, regret for things I done.

Maybe I can blame CNY ,but afterall is still me myself who didn't put my 100% effort in it. T.T
Dad said that I've been going back too frequent so that might be one of the reason, but as a KL-ian, compare to the others, I went back the least of all... what's wrong with me now?

T.T

All the BESTand GOOD LUCK

Mr.63, wish you all the best oh..I know you can do well and I believe in you!!!
加油!!!! 加油!!!!

To you...Mr.63..

thanks oh for saturday night, I believed that I make you even more stress out and tired after meeting me and spending your last final revision period with me.. But I enjoyed reading with you though I was busy with my notes and you were busy forcing all the words into your brain..
Maybe you didn't notice *me neither!!! cause I'm such a old lady tend to forget things* that we spend our 2nd month 26  together again!!! LOL...well coincident do happen !!!! =) something that should be happy for!

A promise is a promise, we didn't meet up at all out side from uni during your exam period. That really makes me think of you more, miss you even more.... but that's the best for you away from all the distraction!!
Today, we met in uni after your exam, you look tired than before...is just two days...you look more stressed up too....is ok, at least I know you are alright... and I believe you can take care of yourself.
sorry, I should play my role but I didn't ....can't help you much or di-stress you or even cook for you...sorry... I know we both are the same person. Keep myself away from meeting you for temporary is the only way to help you to concentrate.*though I really wish I can do something for you...*I think that is the only way too..

Mr.63, stay healthy till exam end k!! Don't fall sick... there's more battle for you to fight for.... rat rat spirit!!!
Pray for the best for you. =)
wait for you to finish your finals... always here waiting....