Just me..

Meeting back my ex doesn't seems to be a good idea... I know is weird to arrange this kind of meeting... He asked for it, and I think is good to let him know the truth. I chose to let Yoon Sin and my sis follow to the meeting, maybe is a way showing that I don't want to meet him at all or is a way to protect myself from getting any weird response from him. Isn't that obvious that I'm so selfish and he is so pathetic? aiks....a relationship that finally come to an end which he can really accept it. I've made him failed his subject, I've become the main cause of everything but is an end meaning is the totally ending. No point thinking back and feeling sorry anymore when I can do nothing bout it.I'm such a cold blood?

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. 

During the meeting, nothing came across my mind other than Mr.63. I knew that he won't care bout this but somehow I wish it won't affect us. His reassurance made me feel comfortable. Even he is not around by my side, but I can really know that we trust each other. *maybe is early to said that but I do think so personally* . I enjoyed all the moment we share bout those problems or facts that what we face, the feeling just come in so naturally that I wish that he know what I'm thinking and don't give any doubt to him in hesitating me and my past. 

PS nothing can replace the most joyful moment I received the best present from Mr.63. Every single word means a lot.

Mr.63，this is for you.. is just like you....

 "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet." - Plato

hmm.....we should try this next time.....=)

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love. 

TOMORROW back to HOME!

Tomorrow will be back! Can't wait to go back after a month! Thou there are so many things to finish up right now but all I want right now is CNY!!! after 2years not celebrating it, finally I get it back! I want the most wonderful cny!!! Really wish that everything will goes right when I'm back to home.

4days before cny is totally pack with all sort of gathering, I just hope everything go smooth! OOps just remember that I haven't confirm with my blue gang yet! Chong JOEE are you free on 1st Feb?? cause all the gang members are free!!! just waiting for your call!!!! so make sure you do!We really need to meet up after so long!!! I'm back from INDIA but doesn't seem like we have lots of chance to meet up since you stay in SG!!!!

Gonna get all my shopping ready since there are few books, colour pencils , some clothes etc!!!
Maybe I should have just request for 48hours per day so that I can finish all my work!!! and meet more friends! Just wish that my stupid exam not so soon! so I can enjoy till the top!

HMM, somehow I do miss my sis @.@.. new year without her must be bored! Wee used to jokes around with cousin and the most important thing is gamble!!! aiks, wonder this time mummy will let us to gamble or not =P  But LIM SHUANG YING, don't worry,  I will keep your ang pao *evil laugh*... let me count only let you know ...bluek!!!! *maybe I will bring a bigger bag this year when go "bai nian" so can keep more!!! since I have double amount of ang pao * Is so fair for me to take yours cause you have been getting mine for past two years!!! wakakkakakakakkakaka

Now really have to go for a quick shopping to get a red dress for cny!!! wonder why the recent trend is so trendy too UPDATE!!!! I can't wear those barbie pink walking around!!! aiyoyo..... looks like mummy have to bring me gai gai again! grey isn't appropriate for first day but what I bought is majority grey this time... why de???

back to home work first...have to finish tonight cause I'm not going to bring back all this burden to celebrate CNY!!!!!!

MISS HOME NOW!!!!!

PS... on the other hand there'll be one week plus not meeting him...aiks!!!!

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The weirdest night ever

Didn't sleep well last night? I'm not sure too... I thought I slept off after a short chat with Mr.63 but I woke up on the middle of night when his message came in . But I never heard any message tone or even see any light blinking. How can I know he send me a message that time? and how come I will wake up in the middle of night that I normally won't.

He called after I replied him, I don't know what I can't talk at the moment he called when I feel like I'm not awake and wondering what's wrong with me. Trying to hang up as soon as possible because the more I talk to him the more I can't bare the thought waiting for him to appear in front of me which can never happen. What's wrong with me being so stupid out of sudden?

Isn't that let him study whole night long is what I want?

=S maybe subconsciously I'm waiting for the call or the message all night long that I don't even realise I did and I need....

PS: sometimes the more we wish something could happen, it will never happen. So never put any hope will gain more surprise. Looks like yesterday just not my day, cause I lost my happy go lucky thought for once. Hopefully today it will be with me again! what is done is done! A brand new day again! Morning people! Today will be a fully pack with plans day! I hope I will plan something then!

Keeping the most happy moment in thought can always cheer people up!

Wordless..ugly truth..

I don't know why..... don't know how...... I'm speechless...suddenly...

something went wrong?

or I'm thinking too much?

maybe what I said and what I think is just two different thing....

wish that you are just by my side now..

is so hard to pretend not missing you and not wanna meet you at all!!!! can't take it!

nitez blog...

Adding note

ADDING ON!

Is one month anniversary thou not 1 YEAR but I pretty sure I will break all the record yours and mine!

Thanks for being by my side thou can't hug you today..=S

HAPPY 1 mth ANNIVERSARY ! !

Time fly, is one month now... well specifically still need to wait till almost past midnight only considered...
As I know it was on 26-27 midnight...I still remember every single second of it, every time your face became blush! Whenever I think of that, you will just make me laugh non stop..
Is not the funny shy look on you, but I think I fall on you the moment you confront..=) that's how stupid I am =P

A day that we both will never forget,
A day we will make it as memorable as possible...

Argh my stomach is blotted now after eating so much. *sob, not eating with him as celebration*
Curious to know why not? Exam still the first place for us right now, so all this special day can put aside and celebrate it later. I bet when the meaning is there, the important person is there, that is special enough thou is not on the right particular date!!!
So I think everyday we meet is also an anniversary day? LOL.....
Hope that we don't need to be only super sweet on anniversary day, birthday, valentine or etc....As long as there's WE , is always a memorable day!

I wish this 1st month will be not a full stop of just A MONTH, but a starting point for our long way journey. At the beginning of journey usually started well in relationship but to maintain it will always be the challenge to test us. I don't know what will we be in future and I never imagine yet till now because I think I rather choose to treasure every single moment with him than always worry bout what it will turn out to be. I hope this will change my perception  too since I'm those worry-type person. =)

Trying to hold a person time for first isn't that hard except the heart feel like popping out detach from the thoracic cage, but holding it till the day hair turn white will be not only tachycardia, but SOB *short of breath* when facing all the facts of our life. I can't promise there will be no fight no argue because a relationship will only develop stronger bonding when learning how to tolerate each other from mistakes but I believe we can make it through.

Sorry that I didn't prepare anything for this special day, really have no idea what I should do.
Other than calling him, chatting with him, my mind just stuck with zero ideas...maybe due to his exam, all my mind think of is stop disturbing him, let him focus till exam end.
Keep him accompany is something I should do for today, but my appearance may affect his progress of studies..=(
One month before, this is the day we spend for more than half day.. one month after we meet only for less than 30sec before you step into your exam hall for the same day. But who cares!!! as long as the mind is tie up!


THERE IS NO REMEDY FOR LOVE BUT TO LOVE MORE



* When you are in Love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams. *~ Dr Seuss ~



Ps:
     Wish Mr.63 all the best in exam and we sill be lovely forever and ever !!!
     hehe since today is the special day and there will be a special wish! cause is consider a birth-day for US.
     maybe when I get to think of something that can remind of we, then only can see what I can do... =S